She said don’t forget the memories
The days when all our love we’d hide, hide inside me. The crooked frame within your heart, slowly fading. The life that you deserved and all the pain that lived in you, I’ve held On to.. Cause sometimes I cry, and these tears whisper your name, I wanna scream with all my heart how much you meant to me! And so I’ll go on waiting, for whatever that may be, I’m done debating whether life is fair or dwelling on what could have been!! The days when all our love we’d hide, hide inside me.. this love it lives inside me.
A few beers, a mixed drink, and a glass of wine later.. Pulp Fiction was the most amazing movie I’ve ever seen to date haha :)
I wish I could just fast forward to the next time we get to be together because I hate dealing with the emotions of always missing you.. it hurts, a lot and often And i don’t think you understand yet because I haven’t had the opportunity to explain myself that deep. What really eats at me is that I have no idea what you’re thinking of me when you haven’t seen me for a while and the question “does she Miss me? ” always hits me in the heart.. maybe that’s my problem? Why am I so worried whenever i know she loves me. This doubt is such a serial depression episode starter..
What she does to me
I always have this feeling like my heart is too big for my chest and it wants out. I feel anxious and un-patient. I am always worrying about what’s happening in her life at the moment. I miss my baby girl so much all the time and she can’t talk very often, and much less do I get to See her.. it’s very frustrating for me because I’m always thinking that she might be growing away from me when on my side I grow stronger feelings for her because all the love I have to give everytime I see her is released and I don’t get to release it that much anymore and I’m sick of it. I want to hold my baby in my arms and tell her that I love her and I wanther to believe me and say it back and I believe it.. I’ve messed up a few times and it’s done some damage that’s irrepairable.. but each time after I get a few kisses and a heart felt hug like she wants me still, if only I could get some closure so I don’t havet o worry why she won’t talk to me as much because that’s the man source of my anxiety and emptyness